Steve can’t remember the last time someone kissed him without there being something else it was connected to. It was always leading up to sex or because they felt they had to because Steve wanted to. Never just because they wanted to.
No girlfriend would kiss him on the cheek when they cuddled, barely even a kiss goodbye sometimes. A hookup would stop the kissing at some point to keep it less personal. It was always Steve who instigated the kiss, never his date. Sure, it was expected for the guy to make the first move, but at a certain point, he wished that they would lean in too.
It wasn’t even girlfriends who strayed away from kissing Steve. When he was little, his mother would kiss his forehead when she tucked him into bed. Sometimes even give him a kiss on the cheek when he did a good job. When she wasn’t around, the nannies would do the same thing. Small little gestures of love through kisses.
But as soon as he turned eight, it all stopped. His dad decided that he was a man and needed to grow up, stop being shown these small signs of affection. It was the same year that his mom stopped staying home often and went with his dad on every business trip, leaving Steve alone for most of the year with his nannies. They would sometimes still give him a small kiss on the head goodnight. But as soon as it was decided that Steve could take care of himself, it all stopped.
being a girl and hitting puberty is so traumatic. you go from being a genderless little free thing to being hit with shaving and makeup and growing breasts and skincare and menstruation and suddenly being sexualised when like a few years ago you could take your shirt off to play in the stream and trade yugioh cards with the boys and come home covered in mud and not even think about it. and then you spend years hating being a girl and hating everything puberty did to you and wishing you could be a boy or be completely genderless again and it takes you Many years to come to terms with yourself Or you simply try to Lean In to everything and do makeup tutorials on YouTube and claim it’s for fun. like how can this be treated as normal
trans people AND cis women 🤝 struggling to exist in a marked body which the world wants to shape, control and project meaning on to against your will
Realistically I could never get rid of tumblr because it gives me the illusion of a community of strange young women all around my same age, all slowly figuring out how to live too
sorry if this question is out of place but im looking for some quenya terms of endearment and your blog seem to be the place google keeps recommending? so here i am, asking if you have a hand list of terms of endearment that might be used. thanks in advance!
Omg really? I would not have named my blog as that kind of resource! But of course I will do my best to help :)
melda = “love”; gendered forms are meldo (masculine) and meldë; the possessive form is meldanya “my love”
other endearments with melda as the root include:
vanimelda = “beautiful and beloved”
arimelda = “most beloved” / “dearest”
ĕrĕmelda = “dearest of all” / “(my) only dear one” - I’ve also seen this translated as something like “desirable/sexy beloved” but I can’t find a source on that right now
there’s also melin “dear” and melindo (masculine) / melissë (feminine) “lover” (from the same root)
basically any Quenya word (especially name-parts) can be turned into an endearment by adding -(n)ya to it - this is a first-person possessive pronoun suffix. so, if a character’s name is Russandol (for example, lol), you can turn that into a possessive nickname by making it “Russanya” - “my Russan[dol]”
endearments can also be nicknames of “normal” Quenya words that when applied in a specific circumstance by a specific person are quite intimate. adding -(n)ya to a word like that is also a great way to make something personal.
and to round it out there are also the terms melotorno “love-brother” and meletheldë “love-sister” - these are actually Gnomish but they melotorno translates to Quenya without any trouble. personally I alter meletheldë to melesellë, but if someone was speaking Fëanorian or Vanyarin Quenya, meletheldëwould still work. these words are….ambiguously queer? it’s complicated. use them however you feel like it!
I’m sure there are more Quenya terms of endearment out there - anyone should feel free to add on to this post if you have one you’d like to share!
my main source for all of this is elfdict.com! please double-check for yourself if you want :)
